I've never been able to stand the feeling of being drunk, with the result that I never have more than three, four drinks max at a time. But in the past I have had my fair share of reality-altering substances, and while I would never, ever want to change one thing about the life I have led so far, I do every so often get annoyed by the fact that I now have issues with panic and anxiety, underlying issues I've had since I was a kid and was likely made worse by ze chemicals. However, I do believe that those chemicals have given me some unique perspectives on life, and my views and perspectives are some of the things I cherish most.
I'm so sober these days—sometimes I feel nothing short of dull. I used to drink 6-8 cups of coffee a day. I now have 2 max, and never after 3 in the afternoon. I've quit smoking (everything), though every so often I will accept a cigarette in a social situation, only because I know that I have overcome the craving and won't sneak out when Jen's asleep to get some from the dairy down the road.
Yea, people who drink seem to want to force you into drinking when you are in their company. I'm lucky; I seem to have a built-in bullshit reactor to peer pressure, so I always just say "no thanks" if I'm past my limit. It doesn’t bother me to say no to alcohol, but it does seem to be a problem for some people, even if they're not hard drinkers. Someone offers you a drink and the inclination seems to be that you cannot NOT accept. I generally find drunk people anywhere from extremely boring to extremely annoying. They repeat things ad infinitum. My time is precious and I can't afford to listen to something more than once (unless I ask to hear it again, but that's my choice). I can’t really say that I have had stimulating or thought provoking conversations with people smashed on alcohol. People high on LSD, sure. But that's another conversation altogether.
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Date: 2009-05-16 09:36 pm (UTC)I'm so sober these days—sometimes I feel nothing short of dull. I used to drink 6-8 cups of coffee a day. I now have 2 max, and never after 3 in the afternoon. I've quit smoking (everything), though every so often I will accept a cigarette in a social situation, only because I know that I have overcome the craving and won't sneak out when Jen's asleep to get some from the dairy down the road.
Yea, people who drink seem to want to force you into drinking when you are in their company. I'm lucky; I seem to have a built-in bullshit reactor to peer pressure, so I always just say "no thanks" if I'm past my limit. It doesn’t bother me to say no to alcohol, but it does seem to be a problem for some people, even if they're not hard drinkers. Someone offers you a drink and the inclination seems to be that you cannot NOT accept. I generally find drunk people anywhere from extremely boring to extremely annoying. They repeat things ad infinitum. My time is precious and I can't afford to listen to something more than once (unless I ask to hear it again, but that's my choice). I can’t really say that I have had stimulating or thought provoking conversations with people smashed on alcohol. People high on LSD, sure. But that's another conversation altogether.